Day #13
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Dear Reader,
I had such an important realization this morning. Well, it’s more like, I recognized a deep-seated cycle this morning. I realize that I am not good with excitement. I have ben practicing, not following through with my excitement’s for so long, that I self-sabotage without even realizing it. I unconsciously viewed excitement as an emotion that you have to work to deserve. That in order to get excitement, you have to practice emotion’s on the other end of the spectrum. Which is not in alignment with how energy works. Excitement begets excitement. Good feeling’s create good feeling’s. And that’s just how energy works. It is momentous. And I have not been good at practicing the energy of excitement and ALOT of the times, I interpret it as anxiety. My body is not good at holding the things I am excited about. Now, this cycle was rooted within me as a child, but like I said, I am not going to harp on the detail’s of the past, anymore. I am going to begin, really focusing on the future. Narrowing my focus on what I want more of. I have been so sloppy with my thoughts and emotions for so long, I am literally, over my own self. lol
So, if you find yourself in me. If you find that you talk yourself away from the thing’s you are excited about, this is your sign to stop doing that to yourself. This is your sign to begin taking up the life you were always meant to create and be, who you truly are. Be the artist’s who creates a life of joy. Be the musician, who moves to their own rhythm of life. Otherwise, what’s the point? What’s the point of living a physical life, if not to enjoy it? That’s honestly, the conclusion I continue to come to. We can study the universe all we want, but we still won’t know why we’re here. Human’s continue to look for a reason, because they want to know if they’re doing life right. And maybe, that’s really where the heartache of humanity lies. In the idea that we are supposed to be living the, “right” way. Instead of just, living. Instead of just being present and appreciating that you even get a chance to live in magical place called earth. We have really made much too much of it all, with no real solid evidence of why we are here.
Intuitively, I feel we are just here to have as many experiences as we can. To have as many physical experiences as we can. And I have always felt that way. Even when I was younger. It was the miserable adults around me, that made me believe that we were supposed to be doing it a certain way. And it was such a hypocritical mess. It’s really the people who tell you how to live, that are the most miserable. The truly happy one’s are just being. They’re just simply, living. They embody what it means to live a happy life. They don’t justify it.
So, what does that mean for me moving forward? Well, now I see how I have talked myself out of so many of my own desires, dreams and goals. The cycle of becoming inspired and excited by a vision, and then discrediting that vision is coming to an end. I feel I am taking even more ownership of the things I have been inspired to. All the things that I want to build in my life, I feel myself wanting to embrace more whole-heartedly. Because I know, that’s what I want. because it is in alignment with my excitement. And the thing is, I may not know how it’s all going to play out. But, something tells me, if I just continue jumping on the train of excitement, everything is going to work out perfectly. If I just learn to embody, the excitement of my life, instead of trying to search for it, then I am literally asking the universe to show me what I’ve been keeping away from myself for so long.
I will be in Oahu the next couple of day’s and my family and I are going to a broadway show this evening. I am so happy, that I followed through with this excitement. I love that I am learning to trust my own excitement’s. Even more, I am so excited to share my own excitement’s with you. I pray the energy ignites your own flame of excitement. I pray that if you find passion for anything, it is for life, itself. Open your heart and eyes to this magical place.
Love Always,
Ariel