Day 28
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Monday, July 7, 2025 12:46pm
Dear Reader,
Today has been another heavily reflective day. I feel like it’s been like this for the past couple of weeks, if we’re being real honest. It is beginning to feel a lot more heavy, as the day’s go by. I continue to become even more aware of my own thoughts, beliefs and cycles that I want to change. I realize, that I have been so hard on myself. Literally, for my whole life. I’ve cared way too much about what other’s think about me. I’ve done way too much of building wall’s to protect myself. I’ve done way too much running from it all.
For the first time, my higher self is in charge of the decision’s. I have been observing my thoughts that just want to run away. To jump on an airplane and travel. I disguise that as wanting an adventure and, while that may hold some truth, I am beginning to realize that wanting to get on an airplane is how I interpret wanting to escape the discomfort I am feeling in my heart. I want freedom. But, the freedom I am realizing I truly want is the freedom from an old version of myself. The part of me that was tied to an over stimulated nervous system. The part of me that just wanted to be accepted and loved by other’s and, would do anything to be those thing’s.
Now, I understand that my search for freedom has always been an internal one. I know that in order to create the type of freedom I want in my day to day life, I have to allow myself freedom from all the beliefs and cycle’s that hold me back. I have a feeling, that once I ease that, I may not want to travel the world so strongly. I may just want to hone in on my creative work and bring that to form. It’s been so interesting to observe my own emotion’s and the thought’s connected to those emotions. Now that I’ve identified the freedom that I must begin with, I at least know where to begin.
Perhaps, a good question to consistently ask myself is, “What kind of decision would a person who values their freedom, make?”
To be honest, I am just going with the flow on this season in my life. I do feel the theme of letting go and making space. It’s definitely a more somber, yet fluid feeling. And, it get’s uncomfortable at times. For the most part, though, as heavy as it is, it feels peaceful. Mostly, because I am not being anything other than who I am, right now. I may not be at my happiest, but I am always appreciative. It is still very easy for me to tune my frequency toward’s the things and people and experiences that I am thankful for. And, at the end of the day, I at least know where I am. At least I am honest, about where I am. I am not trying to pretend that I have it all together or, that I have everything figured out. I can admit to my feeling’s of unrest and, I value unrest, just as much as I do solidity and foundation.
The wind’s of change are forcing me to unravel, unwind and be carried into the unknown. And, I am doing my best to be fluid, within it. All I know for sure is, I am making space for more of me and, there will be a moment in my life, where I will confidently know what my next step should be. Until then, I’m flowing and releasing.
As I acknowledge and embrace this season of letting go, I encourage you to do the same. I write these words specifically for those who are learning to let go gracefully. These word’s are filled with intentional love, healing and strength, as you allow yourself to float down the river of change. These word’s are filled with immense faith in the fact, that not only are releasing what no longer serves you, you are also, allowing space for all the part’s of you that you have been pushing away. Soon, this season of letting go, will make sense. In hindsight, you will see why the universe unraveled your foundation and, you will find appreciation for the storm. Trust that everything happen’s for a reason and that this, is just for a season.
Love Always,
Ariel