Day #7 Reflection
June 16, 2025 9:03pm
Dear Reader,
Today, I realized I’ve been tip-toeing around my creation’s and inspiration’s. I also realized, that I have been looking for thing’s that are holding me back, verses, just choosing to move forward. I have been sitting in somewhat of a purgatory. Allowing myself to be pushed and pulled into what I was, and what I wanted to be. Never fully owning my journey because I was afraid of making a mistake. Or, I was afraid of being judged. The list probably goes on, but for the first time today, I really seen the chaos that I have been creating within my own mind.
When I mean tip-toeing around my creation’s and inspiration’s, I meant I would receive my inspiration’s, get excited about them and then, treat them like they weren’t a gift. I would go back and forth between being excited about my creation’s, but also not trusting in those creation’s. I can see why I haven’t been able to follow through with alot of my ideas. I have been holding them away from me, by not fully trusting them. By really, not fully trusting myself. It’s so interesting to see how important trusting yourself is in this journey of intuition. I realize that if you don’t trust yourself, you’ll have a hard time trusting anyone else. You’ll have a hard time trusting life, itself. It’s a frustrating way to live. Especially, if you’re a big dreamer, like I am.
Today, I feel I finally decided to take my own inspiration’s seriously. To ask myself the question, “How does one act when she believes, whole-heartedly in what she’s creating?” and, “What kind of decision’s does one make, when she know’s that her dreams are going to manifest?” It’s a strong paradigm shift. I realized that I love the businesses that I am creating, but I have never really owned what I was creating. I was always tip-toeing within my business. Looking at other’s to tell me what to do, instead of trusting my own intuition and building my business from my most authentic self. I realize that for the past couple of months, I have slowly began shifting into creating a more sovereign business, but I didn’t really realize what I was doing, until today. I realize, that I could never realy own the statement, “I believe in what I do and in the inspiration’s I am given.”
It’s definitely been an interesting day, because I am actually realizing the type of energy I’ve been carrying. All the bitching I’ve been doing about how shitty human’s can be and how much generational trauma sucks, and realizing all the ways it has held me back. But I feel, I am energetically at this point of wanting to release my tendency to bitch about the challenges from my past. I am ready to shift into a more narrowed focus on what I want to create and having fun with it. Trusting my intuition.
And really, that’s what I created this blog for, if I really think about it. It is somewhat of a documentary that cover’s how intuition will lead you into the life you’ve always wanted to live. And now that I really think about it, maybe I needed to spend that time bitching, so that I could appreciate the clarity that revealed itself, today. Nonetheless, I am ready to do another shift into embracing more of what I want. I am done tip-toeing around my life and, I am also done bitching about it. lol. I am ready to begin writing about how my intuitive path, leads me toward’s my dreams.
Till the morning.
Love Always,
Ariel