A Continued Choice
May 28, 2025
I huge realization I came to this morning, was an old cycle that had been disguising itself as protection and intuition. I only recognized as a cycle that wasn’t serving me because of the year of repetition. The year’s of repetition created SO MUCH momentum, that it started to feel familiar to me. Like I said in yesterday’s post, familiarity is one hell of a veil. I understand I was coming to that conclusion on the cusp of recognizing a cycle that hasn’t been in my life for far too long. Probably, since I lost my dad when I was 14.
I would go into the details of that, but right now, I am feeling I need to call more attention to the cycle. To not just offer the recognition to those of you who may be experiencing the same, but also, to call it forth and allow the energy to move on from a space of understanding and love. I am beginning to bring to life a few dreams and goal’s that I have been sitting on for years and I am getting to a point where I am feeling scared to step forward. I have never traveled this far in any goal, ever. I am beginning to notice all the thoughts that come up about it being too much work or, that it won’t work out, or, that I am doing and being too much. I notice how I start to want to distract myself with completely different goals and find more structured desires. Some thing’s that seem easier because they’ve been done before. That’s exactly what I was experiencing these past couple of days. I was beginning to fall into the familiar cycle of quitting and questioning myself. And man, it sounded so convincing.
I have been asking for honesty and truth, lately. And I realize, I just got my answer. That is my truth. I quit when I get to a certain point and never take myself beyond that point. I have deep fear of being seen, especially, because it is something I’ve never done before. I have fear of the unknown because I don’t quite know what it will look like. I have conditioned myself to believe that what felt momentous, was exactly what I needed to do. And that is not true for all things because there may be alot of momentum behind quitting. There may be alot of momentum behind bad habits. Big energy often feel’s like the right thing to do, but it is just a choice. What you haven’t practiced often, will always feel more subtle in the beginning. When you keep choosing change, momentum builds and it becomes easier and easier to choose that thing. That’s how change grows and work’s energetically.
If you were drawn to reading this, this is your reminder to follow through. Treat, “following through” as a sacred act. One that will align you with the life you have been asking for. Do it in small ways and allow the momentum to build. What feel’s off, may just be because you haven’t been doing it. The energy is still quiet and subtle. This is where discernment comes into play. The simple question should be, is this the thing I want more or less of?
Have faith in continuing to stay your course. Have faith in continuing to choose the thing you want to build - even if it is yourself. Especially, if it is yourself. You will only find the best version of you at the other end of this continued choice.
Be good to yourself.
Love Always,
Ariel