Day #33
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Saturday, July 12, 2025
Dear Reader,
This morning, I immediately jumped into my new perspective shift. Even though, the minute I opened my eyes, I felt like I was an experiencing a hangover. Not in the way my physiological self was feeling, but in the way my nervous system was indicating small bouts of regret. Like, I had spent the day prior, doing thing’s I shouldn’t have. I guess, if I had to put a more specific emotion to it, it would be guilt. I woke up this morning, feeling little bouts of guilt. It was subtle and sporadic. It was connected some reoccuring thoughts. And yet, I was able to move myself out of it. I purposely tuned into the energy of my heart. The energy I was riding yesterday and, my thought’s began to shift right along with it. I am getting better at this.
Perhaps, this is what I have been asking for in relationship to freedom. Perhaps, I have just been wanting to be free of cycle’s I felt I had no control over. The truth is, I always had the control, I just never allowed myself to make a different choice. Now that I am making different choices, the conditioned negative cycles get quieter. They exist, but don’t have a hold of me. It just took conscious and repetitive practice. It is a skill and like any other skill, you get better with more practice. I am learning that applies in all aspect’s of life - emotional, mental, physical, spiritual. I must say, I am quite proud of myself.
In two week’s, I will be teaching my very first, Eyelash Extension Workshop. It will be a free workshop in which I offer the truth about taking up the career as a Lash Artist. Then, I will sell my certification course at the end of the workshop. This is something I am so excited for and to think that I was not going to do it at all. I came back from Vegas with an overstimulated, overloaded nervous system and thought that meant I needed to put everything down and be done with it. I look back on it now and, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve done that to myself. This is another habit, that I needed to shift. I would often talk myself out of anything that initially excited me. It’s a habit that started as a child and carried unknowingly into my adulthood.
I have spent much of my morning, envisioning the aspects of my workshop. Following my excitement and putting together the pieces that are necessary to follow through with this dream. Last night, my partner and I brainstormed about how to put this workshop together and how to carry it forward. We’ve been trying to envision our way forward, after the workshop. Asking ourselves, what would we like this to become? In my heart, I feel this is going to the beginning to something big. It will offer an entire perspective shift and, create a universe that will be filled with more community, abundance, joy, fulfillment, and adventure. I have been envisioning this for year’s. Literally, for year’s. I just couldn’t get myself to close the gap. Now, I am understanding why. And I am choosing to no longer do this to myself.
I pray you never give up on the essence of your dream’s. Continue to develop the relationship you have with yourself, so that you can uncover your own limiting beliefs and begin to see the true potential that exist’s within you. Reflect, often. Appreciate, daily. Honor how far you’ve already come. The quality of your life begins with you.
Love Always,
Ariel