Day #1
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Deck: The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit Deck by Kim Krans
June 10, 2025
Dear Reader,
If today is anything, it is the first day I become real honest with myself, which I feel, I have gotten used to. I have grown the capacity to deliver myself truth, with the intent to change what I don’t like or, to embrace what makes me different. I feel the only part about it that really get’s me, is the fact, that now, I am also, choosing to be real honest with my reader’s.
Tarot card’s and oracle card’s have been a part of my life for a long time now. And honestly, only a few people know how often I consult my deck’s. My partner, is actually, the person who introduced me to my first oracle deck, which is the one in the photo above. He is also, the only one who really knows how much they mean to me, and how much of a tool they’ve been in my connection to God.
Now, when I say God, I also mean, Universe. I also mean, Source. I also mean, Spirit. I choose the word, God, to represent my connection to what is greater than me, because of the steadiness that exist’s within that word. The word, God, carries a foundational and rooted energy. One in which, I want to build my life upon.
Many people equate God to religion, but for me, God is so much more than that. I believe, that I come from God, and God, exist’s within me,every one, every thing, and every experience. That is the basis of my belief. To me, God is the cycle of life. God is the creator, the transition, the destruction. Without God, there is no physical version of me. Without God, there is no possibility of experiencing life in all of it’s greatness. And you know, when I really think about it, this is literally, the first time I’ve ever explained my belief in God. I have often found it to be a touchy subject for many. Especially, because the word God holds so much within it. People have used God to wage wars and even, to inspire peace and that is why, there is so much energy behind the word. There is both ugly history, and life-saving stories. I don’t believe God is a he, or a she. I believe God is everything.
Now, many people equate tarot and oracle card’s as “woo- woo.” Or, something that belong’s to the devil. Or, something that belong to witches and magician’s. Tarot has an interesting history, rooted in the beginning’s of art and religion. But, I am choosing not to begin with the history.
I will begin with what it mean’s to me, because my interpretation and utilization of these card’s, is the only thing’s that matter. I perceive card’s as a direct reflection of my own energy, with every single card pull sending a message to myself, from my higher, God connected self. I have utilized it as a tool to inspire my own healing, to help me see things that my survival mechanism’s wouldn’t allow me to see, to guide me in my own journey of change, to recognize pattern’s and behavior’s that I did not even know existed within me, to understand the root of my own inspiration’s, and to understand where I am and where I could potentially end up. I don’t want to explain too much of my connection to my choice to utilize card’s, because parts of me feel’s a spirit of justification and honestly, I am done justifying my truth’s & belief’s. You either get me, or you don’t. Either way, it is okay.
The direct truth of my relationship to tarot and oracle card’s, is simply that, they serve as a valuable tool in creating a life that is fulfilling, while also, assisting me in realizing what needs healing and release. Some people turn to religion. Some people become deeply spiritual. Some people turn to nature. Some people turn to developing their deepest passion’s. I believe, that whatever inspires you to take ownership of your, one life and, live it fully, with great appreciation, then, all the power to you.
My relationship to God is my own, and I have truly learned to give zero fucks about the opinion’s of others. I don’t push my beliefs on anyone, and I listen and intently love on all those who share their beliefs with me. We all get the opportunity to create our life however we want and, I choose to create an environment in which the freedom to believe whatever you want is compassionately welcomed and sometimes, curiously received.
Naturally, this first post is longer. I wanted to set a foundation of belief before I begin moving forward into my own reflection’s. If you’re still with me, great! Thank you for your receptivity.
This morning was a fun pull because I was with my partner. We had decided to go to the local gas station to try out their new coffee machine. Well, I decided I want to go, and he lovingly drove me. He lovingly drives me everywhere. I am literally, the biggest passenger princess I’ve known.
Our local gas station just invested in a coffee machine that spits out freshly ground coffee. It’s a touch screen machine. You literally just have to press the button, and the machine grinds the coffee beans, and, boom, you get a fresh cup of coffee. Fresh cup’s of coffee are one of my most favorite thing’s in the whole world.
Granted, when we got there, the machine was being weird, and my partner had to do some setting adjustment’s. I ended up getting what I went there for, though.
Anyway, on the way to the gas station, we pulled some card’s. I knew I was going to use these card’s for my first reflection of the day and, perhaps, it was going to give us an indication into the energy of the day.
So, the photo above was our result. As you can see, every thing we pulled came from the element of fire. It is indicated by the triangle on the top of every card. The dragon and gazelle, that you can see partly on the bottom, are also, representative of the fire element. Interestingly enough, I wasn’t trying to get the gazelle in there, but it just happened, as I was holding the cards in one hand, and taking the photo with my other. It was my partner who pointed out the gazelle visitor, after I took the photo.
Sidenote: he is literally my best friend in the whole world. We are the best, most loving team I know. In fact, an Aunty at the gas station yesterday, took notice of that. She said, “It looks like you guys take care of eachother. It looks like you’re happy.” and we both smiled and said, “Yes, we do.” We both agreed that we love getting compliment’s like that. And really, we were literally just being ourselves. That comment was both a surprise and a gift. Perhaps, a universal indication and reminder of the power of our relationship and of our unconditional love for eachother. Perhaps, the fiery card pull, was representative of the passion that exist’s within our relationship. A reminder of our powerful love for eachother, and even more specifically, that the power of love, is the energy that brings unlimited possibilities to your doorstep.
It’s always fun to throw ideas back and forth on what we think the cards symbolize. Or, what direction we should go. It is both internal and external for us. It could be a literal place or, a place within ourselves. Either way, the conversation is always fun and, is filled with a ton of laughter.
Because of all the fire, I was thinking, maybe we have to go somewhere that is naturally hot today. We live in the mountain’s and the drive down to the ocean is about thirty minutes. But the elevation shift is major and the weather next to the water is immensely hot. He didn’t seem to like that idea too much. He’s not a hot weather kind of guy and honestly, I am not either. But I do love the water.
I also thought, maybe we need to go to the volcano at night. Kilauea has been going off lately and, the Tiger mention’s the lunar forces at midnight. Oddly enough, he looked up the volcano’s activity and it said that between June 11th - June 13th, Kilauea is expected to begin erupting again. At midnight, it will be June 11th. So, synchronicity number one. The only thing is, I’m not too sure if I’ll be awake to do the drive. But, like I said, this is 90 days of intuitive living. Whatever happens, happens. If we happen to have some energy tonight to make the 2 hour drive to Volcano, then tomorrow morning’s reflection will be late. lol. I will say, it is fun to play with the universe.
I also thought, maybe it is our indication to drive to our nearest Target, and get another air fryer. Earlier in the week, our brand new air fryer caught on fire. And now, we are air fryer-less. Which is such a bummer because, we love to cook and eat together. And I swear, the air fryer always spits out the best version of every food.
On a more internal level, I reflect on the representation of fire. Fire is an element that represent’s self-transformation, a shift into a different level of reality and, a different version of yourself. Fire burns, to encourage growth, evolution and change. A different relationship to life, and a new journey begins, after a fire rages.
This morning’s pull feels powerful and honestly, I feel it is the perfect pull for the representation of what I am choosing to do for the next 90 days. I know, that this intuitive adventure is literally, going to change me. It is going to transform me into the person I’ve always wanted to be. Which is, someone who has a much stronger relationship to God, and a more trusting relationship with herself. Someone, who is authentically herself 100% of the time, not just when she feel’s it is acceptable. This is where I learn to be in the world without needing to justify anything that I feel, believe, or do. And really, that’s what true freedom is.
Maybe, we will end up in Volcano at midnight, and maybe, we won’t. I just know that this powerful pull is the energy that is going to begin opening doors I’ve never seen before. And whether they are literal doors, or spiritual ones, I feel it is going to lead me on an adventure of a lifetime.
I remind myself that, the key here, is to remain receptive. My survival mechanism’s often force me into action. To force the gap to close, from where I am, to where I want to be. It is a spiral that I have practiced my whole entire life and honestly, it has helped me up to a certain point. I have faith in my ability to hustle, but I also, have faith in the fact that life doesn’t need to be hard. That we can pray and ask for what we want, and be in peaceful receptivity of it. That it is possible to act from an intentional space of knowing and intuition, not survival and fear.
I am not lazy. I am just tired of creating my own burnout. I know the universe got me. I just haven’t given God a chance to hold me without question and, this is literally, how I practice being held. This is literally, the time in which I re-train my nervous system to align with trust, faith, peace and safety.
To be honest, I am a little scared. I have a little bit of fear, but I also know, that I am brave. I have so much strength and so much courage. I have shown up for myself in the darkest of times and now, I know, I can show up for myself in a time of heart opening change. I look forward to sharing tonight’s reflection with you. I look forward to sharing the synchronicities that I notice may happen throughout the day.
Thank you.
Love Always,
Ariel