Day #24
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Thursday, July 3, 2025 7:06am
Dear Reader,
This morning, I started my day with a deep and intentional appreciation list. Usually, I begin with appreciation in my personal journaling and then I let it flow. This time, I intended to go deeply into every single thing I am appreciative for. I wanted to really hone in on the appreciative energy. The energy of love and support because I wanted to receive guidance from that state. It ended up becoming an eye-opening and inspiring session. I can feel the energy of inspiration and creativity leading me into a new way of being. It is bringing about both excitement and wisdom.
More specifically, I am beginning to feel the energy of an adventure coming through. A pilgrimmage. It is as if I am taking that energy of expanded awareness and possibility and receiving ideas I would have never allowed myself to have before.
If I take a step backwards into who I used to be, I have to admit that I was so scared. I used to hide my fear behind this need to be hyper independent. I carried this strong, yet penetrable shield of cynicism. I was insecure, critical, but yet wanted to be unconditionally loved so much. Beneath all of that, I wanted to be noticed and appreciated. I wanted to feel deserving. I wanted to feel worthy and I would look for it in other’s. I can see and feel that version of myself, still. From a more objective view, of course. But I realize that, there was so much fear and pain that existed beneath all of the show. And really, the past few years, have just been a releasing of all of that and a re-building of a stronger relationship with myself.
I would have never allowed myself to live so freely. To even, think so freely. I spoke of possibility, but I did not believe in it. I told stories of pain that carried and echoed through many of my family’s generation’s. It was embedded in my DNA. I didn’t know it because it felt like home to me. In a sense, I feel like this one part, of releasing my beauty studio, is the part that I have been holding onto for so long. Ego was holding it up. But, now that I am releasing my ego and allowing my intuition to take lead, I cannot hold that vision up anymore. It doesn’t suite the person who I want to become. And, that is okay. I am not going to allow myself to feel guilty about it. I think life is supposed to be this way. A consistent release and re-building. Feeling’s of burning down old dreams to make room for new ones. I think thing’s blow up because people hold on too tightly to things that are no longer who they are. And, I think those who watch other’s implode and create stories behind it, don’t understand their own inner implosion’s ready to peak at any time.
I think the beginning part of this series was filled with a lot of chaos and confusion. Alot of thinking I knew what I was doing, but still also knowing, deep down inside that I wasn’t being true to myself. Alot of my ego was still speaking for me. It has been so interesting, to intentionally go on this path of intuitive living and realize that I have been so far off of it. My anxiety was so strong, I couldn’t even tell it was anxiety. I thought it was just, me. I was still trying to figure out what my intuition sounded like. And right now, alot of my intuition is telling me to continue to cultivate this energy of a creative and daring pilgrimmage.
Before I end today’s post, I pray this post inspires you to let go of the things that aren’t aligning with who you want to be anymore. I pray you find the strength to make decision’s that are more in alignment with who you want to be. It is okay to change. It is okay to not want something that doesn’t resonate with you, anymore. Life can be an incredible adventure if you allow yourself to move with the wind’s of change. It does not make you any less deserving or worthy. I pray that at the end of this road, you choose yourself. The blessing here is, you were given one, unique life. Why not choose to align with the path of authenticity? Even if it is unlike what everyone else is doing. You did not come here to live the same life as everyone else. You came here to live YOUR authentic life.
Let’s take this journey together.
I look forward to sharing the unfolding of this story with you.
Love Always,
Ariel