Day #6 Reflection

June 15, 2025 9:40pm

Dear Reader,

Tonight, I have been thinking about all of the action’s I’ve taken from a space of lack. It’s been interesting to see how lack seems to leak into everything you do. Especially, in everything that is important to you. I think, it’s just fear in general. It’s been interesting to notice how much decision’s I’ve made from fear and wanting to protect myself. I also notice, that it does not just exist within me, fear is created and accepted within our society. It has been normalized. I see the beliefs that I need to change around a few very important things in my life, and begin to take action on them.

I go to the gym because I fear getting fat. I try to eat healthy food because I fear getting sick. I do both because I fear I am going to die young. I save money because I fear something unexpected is going to happen. I work so hard because I fear being without money or losing everything I have. There is just so many things that I’ve realized that I do from a justification of fear. And I have missed out on fun and joy, because I am afraid of something. It’s annoying to think about. lol. I though tto myself, I am not necessarily saying that I should change the things that I do, but I think I need to change my why’s. And as much as I tried to change my why’s today, simply by stating them, I just cannot seem to connect with it. Fear has connected me to so many things that I’ve done and still, even find myself doing. There is so much momentum there, that it feel’s like the next step. But, I know it’s not. I know that I don’t want fear to guide me. I’ve been sort of sitting with this realization all day, without any clarity on how to alchemize the energy.

Tonight, I pulled the card, “bridge”, which is a card that represent’s transition. And that’s exactly the energy that I’ve been sort of sitting in today. I know I am transitioning into a different perspective shift. A different way of living. This is all literally being inspired from this choice to begin living a more intuitive life. Speaking of intuition, something that I did notice was happening alot today, was that I was definitely intuned with my partner. And although I didn’t say anything about it, I was definitely noticing all the times in which I knew what he was going to say next. Or, what he was feeling without any explanation. The way, I could literally feel his emotion in my body at times. I was letting him in a way that allowed me to notice my own intuitive skill. It is helping me separate my anxiety from an intuitive gift. They are received different and, they feel different in my body.

I know. This whole blog sound’s very woo woo. But, society has pretty much deemed intuition as woo woo and not real. Even though we are realizing that our brains are tuner’s and receiver’s. It is literally the only way to live an authentic life. It is the only way to align with what you truly want. Your true self and your intuition seem to go hand in hand. You are your true self, when you let your intuition speak and act upon it.

As each day goes by, I feel I get closer to myself. I realize so much of my own wisdom and I begin to think, I should have never doubted myself to begin with. I am filled with wisdom and knowledge, that I didn’t even realize I had. I was offering gifts, that I didn’t even consider gifts because they are so normal and natural to me. Like, writing. Writing feel’s so normal and natural to me. It’s just something that seems to have always been fluid in my life. My ability to take my emotions, thoughts and ideas and express them, has always been a thing of mine. And, now, I am seeing it as a gift. I have a unique voice and many messages to share with other’s. And I am learning to get more comfortable with that. I am learning to understand what it mean’s to act on and share my gift.

These reflection’s have been valuable because I get to the end of the day and I realize that I am always closing this gap between where I am, to where I want to be. It’s hard to see that you’re closing a gap, until you begin intentionally reflecting on it. Like I’ve said before, I thought this intuitive journey was going to begin looking so different. And the thing is, I still do think that, but I am understand that shift needs to begin with me. The journey has to start within myself, in order for it to be something I experience in the physical world. I don’t know who read’s this. And I won’t be checking. I am just putting my heart out there for whoever need’s to hear it. For whoever need’s a reflection of themselves. I am going to let all of this grow organically. Especially, as I uncover the layer’s I feel around being seen. Like, truly and authentically seen. I am going to close that gap here soon though, I can feel it.

Till the morning.

Love Always,

Ariel