Day #6
Lettter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
June 15, 2025 10:02am
Dear Reader,
This morning, my card pull literally opened up my eyes to the fact that I have strong survival energy surrounding money and finances. I have created my own financial structure, from a space of lack and I can see why it takes me so long to close gaps financially. It is this pool of survival and lack and, it doesn’t create abundance at all. There is no balance within this. And so, today, I find myself excited to re-structure my finances in a way that is more intentional and comes from an energy of wanting to water seed’s, grow what is important to me, and build from what I value. It definitely feel’s more solid. So, that was a cool revelation. Something that I’m like, “why the fuck did you not see this earlier?”
I won’t be posting a card today because I realize, what I should have done, was post my whole personal card spread this morning. It would have accounted for this energy I opened up and posed question’s about. I love being able to access answer’s through my own wisdom. Through honest investigation and being open and accepting of my truths. I am glad I came to that realization. It definitely feel’s more freeing to be able to move forward with more intent. I realize that, the more present I become, the more fulfilled I already feel. I don’t find myself wanting anymore than what I already have. And yet, I also know, that more is coming. Perhaps, that is the trust that seems to be cultivating within me. This is perhaps, the safest I’ve ever felt in my own life.
Feeling’s of safety and the development of intuition seem to go hand in hand. It’s hard to access intuition, when you’re in survival mode. In survival mode, we make up our own stories based on our past experiences. And most of the time, it’s stories of doom and destruction. It’s kind of funny to think about from a broader perspective. But, I acknowledge that it does feel so real at the time. It’s so relieving to know and act upon the fact that I am lovingly and protectively held in the arms of my creator. AND, of those who came before me.
A common thread I’m noticing, as I take this journey is that, when I feel I’ve moved the energy on one thing, something else comes up that want’s to be alchemized and transformed. And the more, I trust my intuition, the faster these things come up. I no longer allow myself to ignore or avoid my feeling’s because even if they are exaggerated, there is some truth within it. I explore my feeling’s to the core, so that I can move it. Unexpressed, repressed emotion’s, I believe, is what causes disease. And I also believe, that one day, science is going to align with that. They’re already understanding it to a certain extent in relationship to stress and it’s negative effect’s on the body, but I think that in my lifetime, scientists are going to figure this out in depth and detail. That every emotion, on both ends of the scale affect our physical health.
I realize, that was somewhat of a tangent, but yeah. I am noticing, that there are things that want to be moved. Things I have been holding onto. It is so interesting to perceive the world through the lens of energy. To go to the energetic cycle that exists within an experience and understand it. I see the world differently now. More magically, perhaps. And the thing is, I have been asking for magic and awe. It seem’s to show up every day for me. Especially, as I tune in. Even moving old cycles within me seems magical. Because I know that in transforming them, I get to experience a completely different type of life. One that is more in alignment with my authentic self.
I pray that whoever is reading this, find’s something valuable. I pray that it sparks curiosity within yourself, to want to know yourself more. To find value and worth in yourself, in a way that you never have before.
For those of you who have the opportunity to physically honor your Dad today, I pray you feel nothing, but deep appreciation & understanding, for how his presence has impacted your life. Even, if it has been a painful one. Because, even pain is a gift, if you perceive it as such. If you allow that pain to open you, , healing and unconditional love exist’s through that threshold of pain. You will know yourself more authentically, and understand your Dad, more compassionately.
Love Always,
Ariel