Today & Every Day
June 7, 2025
I continue to talk about trust and faith, but I am realizing, that when it comes down to act from that space, I freeze. My defense mechanism’s go up and past experiences begin to remind me that, my decision’s may be too much, and that I may not be able to keep up with all of the things I’ve put into motion. And yet, there’s this fire that burns inside me, that remind’s me that life is supposed to be lived fully. One of the oracle cards I pulled this morning said, “Against the Grain." and I completely resonated with it. It was a card about moving with your own rhythm. To trust fully, in your most authentic ideas and inspiration’s. It reminded me that it’s not about having to choose between this or that, but rather, to integrate this and that. That I do not need to follow what other’s have done and, I have the freedom to experience life on my own term’s and therefore, come to my own conclusion’s.
It seem’s that freedom requires trust and faith. Otherwise, you are not enacting true freedom. And so much about that feels scary because it feels unpredictable. And yet, my intuitive nature remain’s excited and hopeful about jumping into new things and experiences. It says, that I can make room for all of it, if I just trust in the process and really, just trust myself. I realize, this trusting myself thing, is quite the hurdle. Especially, when I lived inauthentically for so long. I lived in survival mode pretty much my whole life and undoing this type of cycle seems impossible at times. I can’t quite figure out the difference between my anxiety and my excitement sometimes. I feel in over my head sometimes. And on the same token, I am so hopeful and things just seem to fall right into place. Even with the experiences of things falling into place, I find myself fearful of taking steps into the unknown.
I think that’s where momentum places a big role. I realize that just because something feels momentous, it isn’t necessarily in alignment with who you are becoming. The word discernment begins to come up for me in times like this. Momentum doesn’t always equal your path and that is why, knowing who you are and what you want must be the foundation you refer back to. And what I want is freedom, adventure, joy, excitement, love, abundance. I want all of that and sometimes, I will talk myself down from those things because I believe I cannot keep up with it. Which makes me realize, that I must go back to the drawing board and create more clarity around certain aspects in my life that are important to me.
If you are reading this, this is your reminder to, one, practice developing trust and faith in yourself and two, move into being the most authentic version of yourself. From that authenticity, you can hone in on your desires and dreams. Another important thing to remember is, there is room in your life for all of it. You do not need to choose between one or the other. You can have the business and the adventure. You can have love and freedom. That’s the beauty of living in this space, time continuum. There is so much time for you to move into this version of yourself that allows for everything you want.
Be good to yourself today. And every day.
Love Always,
Ariel