Day #38
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Thursday, July 17, 2025 7:23am
Dear Reader,
This morning, I have been allowing myself to feel the doubtful thoughts that come up in relationship to my event. I know it carries weight and value, when these thought’s come up. It is important to me and I acknowledge that.
I am understanding, that when something spark’s inspiration within you, it also, has the potential to spark doubt. Many times, inspiration shed’s light onto your deepest insecurities. Not to stop you, but to encourage you to move it. To heal it. To send it love. To choose to believe in yourself, or repeat old programming. That’s the beauty of the light. You begin to see parts of yourself that you never had a chance to truly see before.
I am experiencing all of this simultaneously as this workshop nears. It feel’s as if I am putting everything on the line to bring this offering forward. I know that’s somewhat of an exaggeration, but it’s definitely what it feel’s like. I woke up this morning, wanting to cancel the whole thing. Thinking that I was crazy for doing this. That I was “risking” too much. It’s been so interesting to experience these moment’s and thoughts. To feel how real they are.
It’s also been empowering to choose different. I don’t have to choose the negative end of the spectrum. I can allow myself to feel it, but it doesn’t need to control my action’s or decision’s. I know that now. I didn’t know it before. At least, not enough to act on it.
I continue to lean into divine trust. I continue to learn toward’s knowing that I am protected and, that my inspiration’s were divinely sent. That this, is truly me. I continue to believe in my vision’s, even on morning’s like these, where I wake up feeling crazy. Crazy for stepping outside of my comfort zone. In a sense, I almost feel like, I create different version’s of the, “hero’s journey” in my life. I create these scenario’s, where I am overcoming old cycle’s and program’s. Proving to myself, that I am worthy and valued and protected. Does it need to be as challenging as I make it? Perhaps, not. I think, that’s an old programming that I need to heal, but I will say, I am proud of myself. I barely recognize the woman I was a few year’s ago. I see her, and know she existed. But, I don’t feel her anymore. I don’t feel so connected to the way she used to navigate through life.
My frequency no longer align’s with survival mode.
It is true, that change is challenging. It is worth it, though. If you are serious about your desires, dreams and goal’s, then, change is a process you must learn to become comfortable within. When we ask for more, we are given opportunities to become what that, “more”, requires. It require’s shedding light on fear’s that have held you back for years. It require’s a more intimate relationship with yourself. It require’s a new foundation that is built on faith and trust.
Moving forward, I am no longer going to write an evening reflection. I feel as if, my reflection’s are more clear in the morning’s. To be honest, I find myself falling asleep at the keyboard when I’m doing my nighttime reflection’s. So, I will pour my heart into one post every morning, instead. It allow’s me to be more intentional.
It isn’t about doing more, it’s about becoming more intentional about what already exists. That is divine feminine wisdom.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel