Day #45
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Thursday, July 24, 2025 9:45pm
Dear Reader,
Today, I am offering a late post. While also, acknowledging that it has been 45 days since I started this journey. I am halfway through this and I feel like my whole life has shifted. More specifically, within me. I am more self-aware, than I ever was. I examine everything and anything that brings up negativity or discomfort within me. Not to build wall’s, but to be able to understand myself more and more. I feel like these past 45 days have been the most vulnerable unraveling I’ve ever experienced. I have never been so comfortable with being honest with myself and it’s slowly beginning to extend to others. I find that as I allow my truth’s to breathe, I observe other’s do the same without judgment. I have my moment’s, but I am so mindful of where it goes. I sit back and think, “That was an intersesting thought.” Or, “why are you thinking that?” I haven’t been letting myself get away with anything.
It seem’s the deeper I go into this inner work, I realize just how powerful our thoughts are. I realize that they are so much more than we were taught to believe. They carry energy and frequency and literally, have the power to create world’s. Our thought’s affect our environment and the people around us. It’s interesting because I always felt that our thought’s were important, but I didn’t value it enough to actually examine every single thought in my mind and make different choices. I recklessly let my thoughts ruminate. Especially, negative ones. I reflect on my life and realized that thoughts do become thing’s. Thought’s do become experiences. Which, also mean’s we have the freedom of choice.
The freedom to choose what you think about is an incredibly underrated mechanism of being a human. Perhaps, that’s what true freedom is. What if it isn’t about money or time? What if it more about being free of thought pattern’s that don’t serve you? What if it more about owning one’s choice to choose how they feel? Or, how they interpret an experience? I’ve fought for sovereignty and freedom my whole life. In different ways. Recently, I realized what I truly wanted was the power to wield my freedom in positive direction’s. What I wanted was freedom from old echoe’s of the past. I wanted freedom from the way I negatively perceived myself. I wanted freedom from thinking that I need thing’s or people to fill void’s. It was my thought’s and conditioning’s that made me feel enslaved. My life just seemed to reflect my own inner processes. The more I work on the relationship I have with myself, the less I seek our freedom through thing’s. I am no longer chasing. I am present. At least, more often than not.
Sometimes, we disguise our desire for freedom through travel, alcohol, food, drugs, and shopping. Anything that will free us from our current state of being. Manicuring experiences to temporarily fill void’s. And while it may feel right in the beginning, the excitement quickly fades because it lack’s depth and understanding. This isn’t about what’s wrong or right. It’s more about noticing the way’s in which you chase freedom. So, that you can decide whether or not you want to be chasing it for the rest of your life. Or, just choosing to be it. Whatever you decide, let it come from a place of unconditional love for yourself. Let it come from a space that acknowledge’s the oneness that exist’s within our universe. One that knows, intuitively, that we are all connected.
Till the morning.
Love Always,
Ariel