Day #62

Sunday, August 10, 2025 9:06pm

Dear Reader,

This morning, I was intentional about working from the inside, out. Nourishing myself, first, before taking care of anything or anyone else. I had the question, “How can I nourish myself today?” at the forefront of my mind this morning. I made sure to craft my day to take care of my body, mind and spirit, first. I did my reflective writing this morning. I hydrated and nourished my body with what I felt it needed in order to work well. After all of that was finished, I focused on other things. I decided that the devotion that I want to pour into all of my project’s and the people that I love, must begin with the relationship I have with myself. I decided the relationship I have with myself is truly going to be the foundation of my life. And, I am going to align with that decision by acting on it.

I am understanding more and more, that because my body naturally goes through a handful of shifts every month, I should work to simplify and structure my life as much as possible. In a sense, I am understanding the sacred duality of being a female. In order for me to immerse myself within the creativity of my project’s, I have to create a structured container to do it within. I realize, that when you are in survival mode, creativity suffers. It is hard to create, when you are having to juggle many thing’s at once or, when you are worried about putting a roof over your head and food on your table. I am understanding that I have the capacity to be the creative force in my life and, the structured and safe container which to direct and mold that creative force. This all begin’s with the way I care for myself. The way’s in which I act on self-love. If I don’t figure out the relationship I have with myself, first, everything else suffers.

Right now, I am doing my best to find the balance between being mindful of my own thought pattern’s, while also enjoying the present moment. This is the work I do in order to change the thing’s that are no longer serving me. Sometimes, I get consumed within it and I view it through a lens of needing to fix myself. As if, I am something that is broken. And, that can be a tricky place to be in. I find myself in my head, examining every single thought and every single emotion, that I forget to just live in the present. I become so serious about wanting change, that the process begins to feel heavy. And, you know, that’s not really what I want. I want to keep the simple core action’s of awareness and change. Allowing my emotion’s to be an inidicator, not a self-identifier. I am understanding the saying, “Emotion’s are fleeting.” They are. They were never meant to be held onto so tightly. They are messenger’s that are letting you know whether or not you are aligned with your most authentic self or not. They are indicator’s. Not something to be held onto forever. It is one of the most unique and sacred parts of being a human.

With that said, I pray that you choose to remain strong within your self-love practices. If you are someone who has learned to take care of everyone else before yourself, choosing yourself, first is going to feel uncomfortable. I may even say, it will feel, wrong. Don’t let that discomfort sway you from your path. Remember, one of the most loving thing’s you can do for those you love is to take care of yourself, first. You experience your relationship with other’s differently, when you well taken cared of. Not only that, other’s experience you differently, when you are well taken cared of. Don’t allow the age old lie that say’s, taking care of yourself is selfish. Because it isn’t. When you serve the best version of yourself, you inadvertently serve and call forth the best version in others.

Till tomorrow.

Love Always, Ariel