Day #72
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Wednesday, August 20, 2025 8:15pm
Dear Reader,
Today, I took a public step toward’s moving my business into integrative esthetic’s. My intent is to provide the information needed to encourage other’s to nurture their beauty from the inside out. My intent is to present myself honestly, the information I’ve gathered and the way I apply the information, honestly. I feel that if social media is missing anything, it is definitely, truth. And I think as a society, we are asking for more truth. Although, many are not ready for it, there is still an asking that can be seen and felt everywhere.
I am definitely feeling like a beginner. I am experiencing the discomfort that comes with doing something new. I read something quite liberating today, that helped me move through the discomfort. It was, “You don’t have to let go of doubt. You just have to move as if it doesn’t exist.” In other words, making decision’s as if doubt didn’t exist. As if, you know, without a doubt, that you’re nurturing your creation to life. When faced with a decision, I am going to start asking myself the question, “What decision would you make if you believed in your vision?” I have realized, that when you truly know and believe something, you just act. You don’t question. And, that’s a skill I am working to develop.
I realize that I have been tip-toeing around my vision’s for some time now and, I am ready to start planting my feet in the soil whole-heartedly. I realized that I have this big, beautiful and bold vision and I haven’t been acting in alignment with it. I have been acting in alignment with fear and doubt. The most annoying thing is, I disguised that fear and doubt, as logic. I have had to really look at myself and acknowledge the thing’s that have been holding me back.
If these past 72 day’s have taught me anything, it has taught me to not be afraid to see myself. Because as I see, feel and honor my own truth’s, I lean toward’s respecting the truth’s of other’s as well. I have learned to understand the darkness that does exist in the world and why. I have also learned understand the goodness that exist’s in the world and why. In both, I have learned to acknowledge the value of duality. Not just within myself, but within everyone else. Through my own self-reflection, I have learned that growth is not linear. It is momentous and cyclical. Repetition is so valuable. Especially, when it comes to making significant and long-term change. I have realized that alot of life is making the choice of moving up the spiral or spiraling, in place. Either way, life keep’s moving, encouraging growth and evolution.
I have to admit that I feel my own doubt as I move into integrative esthetic’s. Honestly, as I write this, I think alot of my doubt has to do with the way I am presenting myself within this business shift. Prior to Covid, I was always on my social media account’s doing different thing’s for attention and validation. I look back and laugh about it though. I was saying alot of thing’s and probably only doing about 70% of them. I was obnoxious and rude at times. Other times, I could feel love flowing through me and I wrote about it. I showed so many different aspect’s of myself without much shame, perhaps. I feel myself wanting to narrow in as I open myself to my social media again. I want to have a stronger sense of self. Not needing to be validated by like’s or comment’s, but with big faith that I am putting out impactful and valuable information. AND, that I am being my most honest and authentic self in the process. It’s weird, to want to want to be more intentional. I notice that sometimes, I disguise my perfectionism as intentionality. There seem’s to be a thin line between the two and sometimes, I can’t tell if I’ve crossed it. As I create my post’s, I notice my insecurities begin to creep in and my needing to be validated, wanting to speak up. And perhaps, this is my opportunity to transform them. To check them and balance them and ground them. I know this first post, probably has way too much information. And, honestly, I will probably begin simplifying my next post, but I do know one thing, each time I choose to step out and share my work, I have the opportunity to make it better next time. I trust in my ability to reflect and to ask the right question’s and honestly, those are two important aspect’s of growth. Honest reflection and asking good question’s allow a leveling up to take place.
So, with all of that, I’d like to present an incredibly cliche offering -
Don’t give up on yourself. Like, for real. Change is cyclical. So, you will always have the opportunity to come up against the experience of making the decision you need to make, in order to become the better version of yourself. Sometimes, you’ll hit your mark. Sometimes, you won’t. Remember, it’s not about getting it perfect. It’s about showing up and making a more aligned decision, each time. Eventually, it will become normal. In time, the change you’re wanting to make, will be a knowing. You won’t question. You will just act.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel