Day #78

Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living an Intuitive Life

Dear Reader,

It’s interesting to be in Day #78 of this whole journey. It’s crazy for me to think that I literally have twelve days left. I cannot even remember the last time I’ve committed to something for this long. I have not missed a day. Even, if it was just to write a short paragraph. In a sense, every tine I show up to write, I am showing up for myself. I am showing up for the commitment’s I’ve made. It has been such an incredible journey.

Today, my brother got married and I had to fly from the Big Island to Oahu for a few hours so I could be there. I left at 1pm and got back at 10pm and man, was it an adventure. The past couple day’s leading up to the ceremony, my brother was calling me stressed. They had planned this wedding ceremony five days ago and then, told their closest family and friends. It was a bit of a shock for me. I knew they were going to get married. I just didn’t know that it would end up being planned in this way. I got the chance to see myself through a different lens because of it. I got to experience how guilt still plays out in my life. I got to experience how shame still play’s out in my life. These thing’s seem to come up more often, when it has to do with what I love and enjoy.

I listened to someone esay something quite resonate today. He said, “Your nervous system doesn’t need more time to heal, it needs more experiences to prove that you are safe and loved.” In other words, it’s experiences in the opposite direction of your trauma, that allow you to re-train your nervous system into a more peaceful and trusting state. When you’ve experienced unsafety, having more experiences of safety help to re-train your nervous system. The nervous system need’s that type of commitment in order to truly heal itself. It seem’s that life experience, is the only thing that truly teaches.

Till Tomorrow.

Love always,

Ariel