Day #77
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Monday, August 25, 2025 8:44pm
Dear Reader,
Today, felt like an incredible day. It’s giving me the opportunity to practice an energetic state and learn how to cultivate it no matter what is happening around me. I am slowly beginning to build more structure in the way I nurture and nourish myself and I am choosing to do it in a way that is more intentional. I used to just jump into so many different thing’s and go through the motion’s, but now, I find myself wanting to move through thing’s with more presence. Understanding how thing’s work, why they work and the part that I play within them.
I have spent much time learning about myself in lower vibrational states, and today, I am learning about myself in a much higher one. One, in which, I pray to learn to carry. It feel’s momentous and I don’t think the word, “fast” describes it, either. It feel’s like there alot of energy behind it. Intentional energy. Creative energy. The type that brings things from thought to fruition. It’s the type of energy that bring’s up feeling’s of happiness, pure joy, connection and anticipation from the future. Today, I am wondering why I do not often choose this energetic state?
This morning, I proved to myself that all I have to do is decide to experience joy. I have practiced indecision and confusion for so long.I have allowed myself to sit with my anxiety as if it is the only thing to identify with. I allowed so much momentum to build behind negativity, that to experience joy is interesting. This is, joy without alcohol and weed or any kind of substance to change my state. It is joy cultivated from within and, I know that it’s as easy as waking up in the morning and saying, “Today, I choose to experience joy.”
I have realized, that choosing to nourish myself and experience the results of it, is part of what cultivates joy within me. Nourishing myself is vitality in action. Putting myself first, is honoring the life I was given. I have never felt so aligned with the decision with to choose myself. No guilt. No shame. Just this willingness to hold up the standard’s I’ve set for myself and, to regard my life and all of my experiences, as sacred.
Yesterday, I wrote about my observation of people and how, everyone is perceiving life through their own filter’s of experience and trauma. That observation has led me to the understanding, that if everyone is experiencing life through their own, unique lens, then I should focus upon the lens in which I filter life through. I should focus upon how I want to perceive life. It’s my perception that determine’s how I experience life. If I get a choice, then I want to choose to see all the thing’s in life that are aligned with joy, happiness, love and creation. I want to be tune myself to the light, within the dark. I want to tune myself to be able to see light in everything and the way’s in which that light inspires other’s. If I get to narrow my lens, I choose to narrow my lens positively.
If you are feeling stuck between where you are and where you want to be, check in with your perspective’s and belief’s. How do you see yourself? What is it that you believe about yourself? And, how does it manifest in your reality? Many times, we carry limiting beliefs and do not even know it. We’ve carried it for so long, it has become familiar. It is wise to remember that familiarity isn’t always what’s in alignment with your most authentic self. The way you see yourself and the thing’s you believe about yourself, create your entire perspective of the world. Check in with yourself. Let go of what isn’t serving you because that is the thing that is keeping you stuck. Take time to reflect and filter. I can guarantee you, that there are probably thing’s that you are still carrying, that you should have released a long time ago.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel