Day #80
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Thursday, August 28, 2025 8:45pm
Dear Reader,
I am ten day’s away from completing this series and I am realizing just how much different I feel. If this journey has brought me anywhere, I have to say that this journey has brought me closer to myself. I have literally, never seen myself this way, believed in myself this much, or even, wanted to understand myself this deeply. I am noticing how much more quiet my insecurity is. I am becoming quick to notice all insecure thought pattern’s. I have realized that they are no longer mine and I recognize them as old way’s of thinking. I no longer feel them so deeply. In a more general sense, I find myself continuing to decide that I no longer want to feel like shit. Period. And I know, that it all begin’s with me and my own thoughts and becoming present with them.
The closer I get to myself, the more I find myself calling my energy back from all of the things I have tried to control and all of the things I have spent time worrying about. As each day passes, I realize more and more that all of that was keeping me away from the present moment. I realize that if I am going to spend time in my own thoughts, it’s going to be an activation of my imagination and how wonderful my future could possibly look. It’s going to be thoughts of appreciation. It’s going to be confirmation’s of clarity and intention’s of moving forward. I never considered myself a negative person, but the more I see myself, the more I realize how easily I moved into negative thought pattern’s. How easily, I found myself judging other’s and even, judging myself. I realized that I had no real solid foundation surrounding what I actually believe about myself.
For the first time in my life, I am choosing to believe in my power. I am choosing to believe that I get to have all the thing’s I want, in whatever moment I want to have them. I am choosing to believe that I do not need to look for validation in other’s because I already am beautiful, intelligent and wise. I am choosing to believe that I am the best at my work. I am choosing to believe that I am the best mother and partner. And, this belief isn’t rooted in perfection, either. It is rooted in my belief that I am self-aware and courageous enough to release what isn’t working and align and embody, what does. It is rooted in my belief that I have learned how to sit in the discomfort of change. In other words, I simply, choose to trust myself.
If can be difficult to realize your power, when you have lived in an environment that felt intimidated by it. It is only because they have not yet realized their own power. However, never forget that you were born with so much greatness. Your most authentic self is powerfully aligned. Be clear about who you are, so that you can become all you were meant to be.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel