Day #25
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Friday, July 4, 2025 11:10am
Dear Reader,
Today, I feel I am really beginning to own my life. There is an emotion I am beginning to notice AND intentionally cultivate. I am paying attention to what plays out when that energy spikes. For right now, most of it is conversation’s that have been sparking my imagination, but nonetheless, I am choosing to take all of them as signs of my own intentional energy cultivation. I am finding excitement in every one of those moment’s and riding the wave. For the first time, I am noticing those moment’s as gifts.
Before, I would interpret those moment’s as, not having reached my ultimate goal. Or, not getting what I want. I realize now, that every time I did that, I didn’t allow momentum to build in the direction of what I want. I kept killing it with my disbelief and my inability to appreciate the energy that was being cultivated. This time, I am going to appreciate every opportunity in which the energy present’s itself. No matter what physically manifest’s. This time, I am going to trust in own guidance. I am going to trust in the word’s of advice that I’ve offered to other’s.
I realize that if you are reading this, and find yourself confused, I have learned to create my life around the belief of energy. I believe that energy is what create’s. I believe that our emotion’s are energy'. Therefore, our emotion’s create our reality. We create our own reality based on what we focus upon and the emotion’s that we choose to cultivate within ourselves. I believe the way we perceive the world, is a reflection of what’s going on inside of us. I believe that, you can tell how you are feeling by what is manifesting and what you are noticing. It’s from this basis of belief, that I am learning to create my own reality. I was someone who thought action trumped emotion. I was someone who would take action despite how she was feeling. I was someone who had so much emotion, but had no idea how to direct it and how to be intentional with it. I was someone who had no idea how powerful our emotions’s truly are. Growing up, I was often told I was too emotional. I was told to be tough. That crying showed weakness. And although, I was brought to tear’s alot, I did my best to present as a tough woman. Underneath all of that, I was far from tough. I wasn’t intentional with my life and I was following what other people were doing. I believed I was independent, but I was really just taking cue’s from other people who were in similar position’s as me. I was cynical and critical.
I am so proud of myself for challenging my old belief’s. I am proud of myself for following my own deep curiosities. That’s what led me to this type of work. Honestly, I have been doing this inner work for year’s. But, I was tip toeing around it. I wasn’t brave enough to begin living my whole life by this new set of belief’s. And maybe, it’s not supposed to be a huge transitioning life event. Maybe, it’s supposed to be a gradual shedding. Maybe, it’s just what was easiest for me. But either way, I am glad I did the work and continue to do it. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be in this position - feeling whole and confident, safe, secure, fulfilled. Probably, for the first time in my life. Granted, I have been having moment’s of insecurity, but I have gotten so much better at dealing with it. I recognize it as an over stimulated nervous system. As old echoes of the past. They are no longer me. I am choosing to trust in the Universe. I am choosing to trust in life. I am choosing to trust that nothing is ever for nothing. There is a reason for all things.
I feel a deep adventure coming forth. I also feel drawn to writing my stories, again. I started writing a fiction story, that has been floating in and out of my awareness for year’s now. I tend to always put it back down. But, as I own this intuitive path, I feel the story calling to be written again. I have always loved magic and I have often thought about writing a story about magic. Perhaps, I wasn’t even supposed to truly pick it up till right now. Perhaps, I have had to have more life experiences in order to put this story together. But, I feel it calling me and I feel myself wanting to step forward to meet it, finally.
I pray you are inspired to the courage to write your own story. I pray you are able to feel the strength that exist’s within you to create your own reality. I pray that all the magic you’ve felt and dreamed about, manifest’s in your reality. I pray one day, very soon, you will be able to stand in the midst of your life and think, “I am so incredibly blessed.” Your life is unique and sacred. I pray you meet the energy of your most aligned life with open arm’s, a receiving heart and a joyful soul. These stories of magic are written for you. Allow them to serve as a reminder that magic exist’s within you and all around you.
Love Always,
Ariel