Day #49

Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life

July 28, 2025 3:02pm

Dear Reader,

I would like to get better at being more deliberate and, I think what I get confused with is being deliberate and also, being receptive. I often feel it has to be one or the other. I need to be either narrowly focused, or incredibly open. That’s the delicate balance I am aiming to find right now. As I write this, I am understanding that the narrowed focus is more about clarity of energy. Knowing what I want to experience and, being open to how it unfold’s. Setting the desire and become fluid within the process.

I realize more and more that energy speak’s much louder than words. It makes me realize how powerful our emotions are and how, important it is to be mindful of your thought processes. My brother and I have been talking a lot about generational trauma. It has clicked for him in a way that never has before. Interestingly enough, we are both on a journey that look different produced the same goal - becoming our most authentic self. It is interesting to observe your own thoughts and action’s you may have taken in the past, and realize, you were acting from a space of fear. Fear that was taught to you. It was passed down from generation to generation. It was disguised as love and good intention. This journey can be tricky, as you dig into the core of your conditioning’s.

I believe I am still uncovering. Still unraveling. I am beginning to unravel one aspect of my life at a time. Realizing how I act within the thing’s I value the most. How tightly I hold onto people and experiences because I have been taught to be afraid to lose. It get’s incredibly confusing sometimes because, although I know at times I am acting from a place of uncertainty, I am not quite sure what certainty looks like, either. I feel, again, that I am in another transition. Moving into different level’s of reality, one change at a time.

I wonder sometimes, does this end? Will I always be on this journey of self-realization and actualization? This is perhaps, the adventure that I have been asking for. The adventure I didn’t know I needed. Why? Because, as I change, my reality changes too. The more I uncover about myself, set new goal’s and intentionally choose to be different, I experience new thing’s about myself. I think I’ve been looking at it from a perspective of beginning’s and ending’s. Instead of a fluid and continuous movement.

Honestly, when I shift into the perspective of fluidity and continuity, I realize that this is quite exciting. I realize that means anything is possible for me and I can grow and evolve into anything that I want to be. If I am more intentional on this journey, so many things could happen for me. I love the idea of that.

Two day’s ago, I walked through a threshold of leadership. I decided I was going to take on my dream of building a business empire. I decided that I wanted to challenge myself and become the person that build’s that empire. And, I can feel the next step’s moving within me, beginning to translate into words, idea’s and understanding’s. Tomorrow, I will be more intentional about bringing those idea’s to life. Giving them space to breathe and allowing myself to feel for the next direction.

So, with that said, I leave you with this -

Imagine what your life would look like if you allowed yourself to continuously level up. Imagine the reality that would manifest, if you evolved into the person required to reach your goals. Imagine the continued journey of excitement and adventure. Do your best to keep this in the forefront of your mind, as you release old cycle’s and, as you feel the discomfort of the unknown. In the unknown, you will find more of yourself. That is what makes this healing journey so worth it.

Till the morning.

Love Always,

Ariel