Day #52

July 31, 2025 5:13pm

Dear Reader,

Today, definitely feel’s a lot lighter than the past few day’s. The more I understand the energies that I haven’t moved within myself, the faster I transform them. The more I begin to create what I actually want to experience. If I had to take the definition of freedom and re-define it, it would be this. It seem’s that the freedom I was looking for, was the freedom from negative thought pattern’s and the action’s associated with them. It is freedom from my narrow perspective of life. It is freedom to be able to see and know my own potential and the fact that everything I need, already exist’s within me. I finally feel as if I have taken accountability for my life.

My daughter has been with me for the past week and, over time, I have noticed that our relationship flourishes based on the quality of time we spend together. It’s not about what we’re doing, it’s about how intentional and present I am when we are together. Many times, our best moment’s are the conversation’s we have in the car or, at home. I have had this clouded view, that I needed to have all these thing’s or be able to provide all these thing’s in order to be a good mother. I have realized, that being a good mother, and even a good person, is the presence I bring to our moment’s together. I’ve released myself from the negative thought pattern’s that were created from a space of feeling like I wasn’t enough. That I wasn’t doing enough. I have proven to myself, that doesn’t have to be my truth. So today, I decided we would just hang out at a nearby park, walk together and talk together. I decided I would be present in all the moment’s we have at home. I would include her in everything that I do. These moment’s are enough. Not only are they enough. They are everything.

It has been quite an interesting experience to see the way’s in which I would try to compensate through action. Always wanting to prove myself. I wanted to prove that I was enough and that, I had it all together. But to be completely honest, I’ve realized that it is honesty and presence within the process of life that is sacred. I have learned to be honest with where I am and, work intentionally with what I already have. I have learned that I always have what I need and, there is always a way to bring something together. I have learned the value of pausing, should the journey call for it. I am finding the sweet spot between spirituality and logistic’s. I believe they are both valuable should one want to live a fulfilling life. This is what they mean by, “Life is about the journey.”

With that said, may we all make peace with our own humanity. May we all decide that it is okay to be in the process. Not only is it okay, it is life. To deny that, is to deny the energy that create’s worlds.

Till tomorrow.

Love Always,

Ariel