Day #56
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Monday, August 4, 2025 8:52pm
Dear Reader,
So many different thought’s and feeling’s today! You know what it felt like? It felt like a very dual day. One moment, I am excited and productive. Working on my program that will be releasing soon. The next minute, I’m agitated and irritated about this past week’s realization’s of my hyper vigilance and how it has affected all of my decision’s. It was all kind’s of feeling’s today and I was just holding on for the ride. Allowing myself to fluidly move through all of it.
On tonight’s reflection, though, I want to focus on the program that I am working on. I am going to be starting an integrative esthetic workshop. I am calling it, “Foundation’s Of You” and, it will be split into three different pillar’s, with 6 week’s for each pillar. Every week will be a specific focus that slowly build’s a system and therefore, a stronger foundation in life. The first pillar is the physiological self, and all the foundational habit’s we can incorporate to create wellness in our life and, how it affect’s the skin. More specifically, I focus on women’s health and wellness. I acknowledge the cycle and rhythm that the woman’s body goes through and I weave it into this system. I am quite proud of my program so far and in fact, I will start putting myself through it. With today, being the first day. This first week is focusing on the Menstrual Cycle and has a Daily Log & Checklist that allows you to tune into your body and begin to notice pattern’s, and try out different way’s to bring your body into a more balanced state. The core of this work is really about learning who you truly are and, I find myself so excited about teaching it. I am more excited about teaching this, than I am about my workshop in October. I wasn’t planning to release this workshop series until October, but I may just do it in the next few week’s. That’s how excited I am about this!
You know what I’m looking forward to about this? Everything that I am going to learn about myself. And, I am going to be doing it in a more structured way. I have always been reflective in my own self-work, but to have a structure to be able to recognize pattern’s, apply knowledge, and gather new info, will bring more depth to my work. This is something I know I am going to show up for and present, even if no one show’s up, you know? And that’s how I can tell, that this is a huge part of my passion.
For some reason, I can feel this series becoming a reflective book that I put together. Something that creates a state of reflection for it’s reader’s. Perhaps, even integrating an actual journal with prompts. A guided intuitive series of some sort. I have been thinking about it alot lately, as I close in on 2 months of doing this. I have to say, I am so proud of myself. I haven’t committed to anything like this in a long time. It is definitely building a strong sense of trust within myself.
Today, I also opened registration for my eyelash extension course and my artistry circle. I decided I was going to create a group of lash artist’s to partner with me in my lash product collection. I guess there’s alot of agitation within me because I am putting myself and my work out there. I feel vulnerable. I want this all to work. I want to be chosen. And yet, I also know, that whoever comes, are supposed to. Whoever sign’s up, was supposed to. I have to align with my faith right now. My faith doesn’t act on a hustling vibration. It act’s as if I already have what I want. It act’s as if there is no plan b. And if we’re being honest, I have never given myself that type of grace. I was always trying to close the gap between where I am, to where I want to be through force. I was taking action from my state of hypervigilance and a deep-seated need to be chosen.
I am learning to trust in creating a system that begin’s with the clarity of my own desires. I am learning to trust that clarity is going to bring the right people to me. I am learning to trust the part of me that always knew her worth. That knew she was so deserving. I am learning what it look’s like to act on that part of me. I have been acting from my hyper vigilant, wanting to be chosen, self, that this process feel’s challenging and even, somewhat painful. This journey toward’s becoming my own best friend is paradoxically, the most painful journey I’ve taken so far. No one prepare’s you for the reality of deep, long-term change. But, I have decided I am committing to this. I am committing to learning and allowing momentum to build in a new direction because I believe in myself. I believe that I deserve a good life. And, I know that a good life, begin’s with me and the relationship I have with myself.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel