Day #64
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Tuesday, August 12, 2025 8:24pm
Dear Reader,
Tonight I reflect upon the idea, that you can have what you want. I have been really sitting with that thought the past couple of day’s, as I examine different possibilities and path’s all over again. It’s so interesting how these type of examination’s come up, every time I begin to set goal’s to root and anchor into my current project’s. I realize, I’ve done that my whole life. I want stability and foundation, but I have been so easily distracted. I did not even realize how much I was pushing and pulling against my biggest dreams. I want to anchor something and grow it, but something shiny and new present’s itself and take it. So, I have a bunch of experiences of learning new thing’s, but not deep one’s. And now, that I realize that value in depth and devotion, it is so much easier to choose. I find myself less and less drawn to fleeting inspiration’s and ideas, that don’t align with my desire to build a solid foundation.
I did not realize how much fear I had around structure and the action’s required to build a solid foundation. My fear was disguised and marketed as freedom. I convinced myself, that I wanted freedom and that’s why I didn’t create much structure in my life. I also stayed far away from anything that required me to be structured. At least I thought I did anyway. That is the one reason, I refused to go back to working for someone else. Now, I realize that structure is so valuable. That life and everything you create, is this lovely duality of structure and freedom. It seem’s all thing’s life require a balance of two opposites in order to evolve and grow into its highest form. And, I have realized that I’ve always existed on one end of the spectrum. It blinded me. I couldn’t see or feel the benefit’s of what structure, devotion and discipline could bring.
In understanding my relationship to fleeting inspirations, I see that many of the thing’s I thought I wanted, were actually forms of escape. Many times, I was also looking to fill a void. A void that only depth, focus and devotion can fix.
I am recognizing what it mean’s to be devoted. Devotion has the element’s of unconditional love, presence, intentional nourishment and supported growth and evolution. It is embodiment. You become whatever that person, project or, experience needs in order for it to evolve into it’s highest form. It is genuine and authentic. Devotion in action does not go through the motion’s. It step’s forward in truth, with presence, and know’s what each moment may or may not need. Devotion connect’s you to your intuition. I realize you cannot have one, without the other.
I am learning to embody devotion. I am learning what that means and how to act on it. I have been conditioned to follow other people’s path’s and to take cue’s from their journey’s. What I wish I learned was how to become devoted to my own life, by developing my intuition and creating my own path. I think people would call that, “following your heart.” But, it’s so much more than that. It’s knowing what resonation feel’s like and following that. It is knowing how to tune into all of your senses, and translate them as forms of wisdom. Our bodies are both wise and intelligent. If we learn to listen, we will be able to understand more of who we are and align with a more authentic path.
I pray you choose to devote yourself to living a fulfilling life. I pray you are able to discover what inspires devotion within you. I pray you get to embody the person you’ve always wanted to become, so that you can live the life you’ve always wanted to live.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel