Day #65
Letter’s of Surrender: 90 Day’s of Living An Intuitive Life
Wednesday, August 13, 2025 8:53pm
I have been very reflective of my journey these past 65 days. It has been the most profound, inner journey I’ve ever intentionally taken in my whole life. I have realized so much about myself, learned what it meant to love myself, narrowed in on a foundational vision, and am actively taking steps towards it each day. I am probably going to look back on each individual post and realize how much of a rollercoaster my thoughts and emotions were. I am understanding that idea, that when you ask for clarity, chaos and confusion hit first. Every single truth of must come to the surface and be acknowledged and considered in order to narrow your focus. Especially, if you have an incredibly active mind, like me. My mind has been active with both vision and survival. It’s been so many year’s of pushing and pulling against my own desires.
Today, I took a step toward’s transitioning my esthetic’s business into an integrative esthetic’s business. Meaning, re-defining beauty and esthetic’s in a way that consider’s the inner health and well-being of a human, as well. I have been prepping and planning to announce my transition for a few week’s now and finally, did it today. It is one of many public step’s toward’s getting behind integrative esthetic’s and it’s future. I have become more intentional with how I am choosing to advertise and market my business. My intent is to offer value in all thing’s I put out into the social media world. My intent is impact, not popularity. My integrative intent is to impact my audience by offering value.
I have narrowed in on embodying the role of a teacher, guide, and mentor. Everything I am learning about myself in this intuitive journey, is something that I want to share with everyone. Whether it is. my daughter, my client’s or my audience on social media, I want to be able to bring value to everyone’s table in the form of presence, deep and active listening, and insight. I am realizing that to have any possibility of positively impacting anyone, you must first, become present with them. Presence is a gift that is often underrated. It is never given the recognition it deserves. In being present with someone, you offer both time and energy and that is something, you cannot get back, even if you asked for it.
Today, I also realized that I have to be mindful of my own negative thought pattern’s. More mindful than I have been. I have been catching myself in these negative thought pattern’s and mood’s, wishing thing’s were different, and really, just denying the present moment. I get so caught up in them sometimes, that I begin to identify with them. I instantly, become a victim. Perhaps, that’s why I’ve been noticing them more — they have to come to the surface before they make their way out. They have to be recognized in order to be flushed out because you cannot clean up, what you can’t quite see.
Let’s begin to align with our own happiness. Although, there is so much value in doing the inner work. I also recognize how this journey can get dark. The key is to not allow the darkness to consume you. It isn’t presenting itself to haunt you. The darkness is presenting itself because you are finally brave enough to see it for what it is. When you see it for what it is, you will realize that it doesn’t benefit you, and let it go.
Till tomorrow.
Love Always,
Ariel